I feel like a part of me has just died. I have made mistakes in my past that I know has brought you countless and numerous pains or haunts in your life. I know how much trouble I have caused you. Or even, the people around me have caused us. I was well prepared back then. Well prepared enough to bear all the hurt they have caused you; I have caused you. I know how much my attitude sucks. I asked for opportunities but I never fulfill them. I fail to give you the happiness required in every relationship. We only meet at night and I fall asleep all the time. Perhaps I was tired. But no, I'm just a certified lazybum. I know apologising might no longer make sense now but I'm really sorry.

I'd go through anything with you be in ups or downs, bitter or sweet, sour or totally tasteless, you name it. Just as long as I know that I've got you with me. You might have feel I've taken you for granted at times but truth is, I've always cherished every single of my time spent with you. You are within me in everything that I do, or wherever I go. I've never kept you away from me. Not a single once I had you out of my mind. I thought I could be different. I thought I could support you. I thought we could go through years and years more together. I'm not blogging this only after I regret my mistakes because I have long ago blamed myself to how cocky our relationship has been all this while.

You have done a lot on your part. You put up with me all these years yet I've not thanked you for what you did. I'm sorry. If I could shower you with my love once again, I'm swearing to God I will not keep you in the lurch or give you anymore unnecessary hurt. I thought my love for you was enough. Enough to keep this relationship alive. However, I neglected you all this while. If I could beg for your return, I will. I still need you with me. I still need you to hold my hand and we walk the aisle of success together. I don't want to be like those jerks out there who've caused you tragedies in life. I wanna give a life to you again.

The moment I made you mine 1 year, 6 months and 25 days ago, I've promised myself I'll be responsible of you and everything that it takes to be yours. I've always had in my mind that no matter what happens, we've got each other.

Please forgive me cause I need you still.

Still loving you, Hasheezah Sarafina.❤